Two years ago my mother passed away from cancer and my father and younger brother were left with all of the expenses from her death. I really never knew how much it would cost and I hope to never relive it again. As my brother is only 16 years old and my father cant provide with just one job, I had to do something. I had to make a drastic career change that I knew would be amongst the most difficult things I have done in my life, next to burying my mother. It took me a little while to get out of my slump from my mothers death, but just a short while ago I finally came back to reality and I signed up for college. I had felt like I signed away my life.
Although my first thoughts about it were selfish because I didnt understand why I had to do all the work, my thoughts soon changed. I started to get excited about my familys hardships finally ending and the fact there were now possibilities of us being able to get a new home and pay off the funeral costs. I feel like until those are paid we will have a dark cloud just hanging over our heads. I cant let that happen to my brother and father. Although my father has never been the nicest man, he has always provided for his family and for that I am grateful. So now it is my turn to return the favor and show him how thankful I am for everything he has done for me.
Starting the 27th of August I will be enrolled at the local college where I plan to pick up where my mother left off on becoming a nurse. Although it saddens me to take on her dreams, it gives me hope that one day I will be as good of a woman as she was. She put so much effort into her schooling so we could have a better life and I am bound and determined to make sure that her dreams live on and my brother and I have a stable life. A life with no financial troubles or anymore devastating incidents.
The way I figure, after graduating I should be making 5-6 dollars more an hour than I have been. That means I will be bring home more than enough to pay bills and start working on our payment plan with the funeral home. I am going to write everything down on paper so I have an idea on how long it will take to get caught up. It will be nice to show my dad so that way it can give him some hope in a world that he thinks is ruined. I want him to see light again and realize that it is his turn to rest and just let me take care of him for a change. Although my brother is to stubborn, I will try my best to care for him as well.